I cant qet over mah ex i need him!!!?

i need this quy real bad he is mah life buh i messed up by fiqhtinq too much ndd havinq him on check all the time buh i dont know if he feells the same way any more buh i really love him we been toqether fo likke 4 months but i miss him i cant qo on life knowinq im not with him wen i try to tlk to him he dnt want to and wen i askk him questions he always says idkk ndd the thinq is im his first qf and he is mah first real love omq i need him wat do i do?!?