How do I change my life ? ...can you really change?

i try to escape myself, and i don't love myself. i constantly want to be somebody else. i am my own worst enemy. i let how others see me, view me and talk to me,... hurt me, and make me angry, mad, depressed, sick, lazy, etc. how do i become stronger, and truly change my life.... I want to reinvent myself and my life ...so that people actually see me ...were do I start